The past few weeks have been a challenge for me mentally, spiritually, and emotionally. I feel bogged down by so many stressors within and around me. I’ve been trying my best to sit, observe, and acknowledge them but the stressor I find hardest to mindfully be with is myself. I know most of this anxiety and overthinking stems from my need to control and to fix things now. Even during sleep, my mind goes haywire trying to resolve and deal with all of the pressure I’m going through. As a result, I wake up so tired and unsettled from having an overwhelming fusion of dreams of hopes and fears.
Today was another morning like that. I woke up sad and defeated because I couldn’t (or didn’t) do anything about these pressures. I’m fully aware that there is a time to address each of them and I have assigned dates when I should deal with each of them already. However, sometimes, my controlling mind thinks it’s not enough. There’s not enough time. Fix it now.
I decided to lay in bed for a few minutes just to feel these anxieties and let them wash over and away from me. And just as I was feeling calmer, an email from Ashley Turner’s newsletter arrives bearing the title, “Stress Relief Meditation.” She talks about how breathing deep is the key to relieving stress, fear, and anxiety.